Sunday Night

I said I'd update this every day or every other day, didn't I? I just don't think my life is that interesting. Especially now as I feel like I am just circling the drain. It has been one week (tomorrow) since my last radiation treatment and I am not feeling any better, but then again I am also not feeling that much worse. Kind of a position of limbo or something like that. Maybe the radiation is knocking it back just enough to give me a few more days, pain or no pain... well... since there is no such thing as no pain, just a few more days to appreciate life and wish it would just go away. I am still thankful for each day, however, my life is kind of boring. Maybe it is just that dying from cancer is really boring.

Dr Kelly wanted to see me on Tuesday, but her schedulers didn't bother to consult with me about my own availability and just sent me a notice. Sadly, I have both a dental appointment and physical therapy at the same time. So, I called and asked to reschedule for a time that I am actually available. They said they would have somebody call me to reschedule. The next day I get another notice in the mail with another appointment to see Dr Kelly, in one month. What is it they don't understand about please call me and set an appointment with me in person?

Little frustrations like this have been bothering me a lot lately.

I missed a wedding I really wanted to go to yesterday. It was in California and the trip just would have been too long for me.

Mom's 80th birthday party is in just under two weeks now, on the 24th. The plans are coming along for that quite nicely and it looks like we will have over 50 people there too. What a great thing that will be for her. All of us really. I need a party and to see some of the people that will be there like my sister Nancy. I am so looking forward to that.

Then I will begin chemotherapy again on the 26th.

So, that is just about all that is going on in my life, except I am working on a senior portrait. That really is a lot of fun! It is one that I donated to an auction back in 2007. Wonderful mom and delightful daughter. I might post some of the session images at dA. http://e-cj.deviantart.com later this week if I run out of other things to do.

Does anyone read this blog? Please let me know if you do and I will be sure to keep writing when I can. The lack of responses to most of my posts tells me that maybe my time might best be used elsewhere. So, let me know if these posts make a difference to you.

Have a great day!

Smiles, CJ