I said I'd update this every day or every other day, didn't I? I just don't think my life is that interesting. Especially now as I feel like I am just circling the drain. It has been one week (tomorrow) since my last radiation treatment and I am not feeling any better, but then again I am also not feeling that much worse. Kind of a position of limbo or something like that. Maybe the radiation is knocking it back just enough to give me a few more days, pain or no pain... well... since there is no such thing as no pain, just a few more days to appreciate life and wish it would just go away. I am still thankful for each day, however, my life is kind of boring. Maybe it is just that dying from cancer is really boring.
Dr Kelly wanted to see me on Tuesday, but her schedulers didn't bother to consult with me about my own availability and just sent me a notice. Sadly, I have both a dental appointment and physical therapy at the same time. So, I called and asked to reschedule for a time that I am actually available. They said they would have somebody call me to reschedule. The next day I get another notice in the mail with another appointment to see Dr Kelly, in one month. What is it they don't understand about please call me and set an appointment with me in person?
Little frustrations like this have been bothering me a lot lately.
I missed a wedding I really wanted to go to yesterday. It was in California and the trip just would have been too long for me.
Mom's 80th birthday party is in just under two weeks now, on the 24th. The plans are coming along for that quite nicely and it looks like we will have over 50 people there too. What a great thing that will be for her. All of us really. I need a party and to see some of the people that will be there like my sister Nancy. I am so looking forward to that.
Then I will begin chemotherapy again on the 26th.
So, that is just about all that is going on in my life, except I am working on a senior portrait. That really is a lot of fun! It is one that I donated to an auction back in 2007. Wonderful mom and delightful daughter. I might post some of the session images at dA. http://e-cj.deviantart.com later this week if I run out of other things to do.
Does anyone read this blog? Please let me know if you do and I will be sure to keep writing when I can. The lack of responses to most of my posts tells me that maybe my time might best be used elsewhere. So, let me know if these posts make a difference to you.
Have a great day!
Smiles, CJ
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Yes, dear Carole, these posts make a difference to me but I have to remember to check them!
ReplyDeleteI've popped into the other journals and noted that there was nothing since July, then the penny dropped. Silly me. I'm sorry that I forgot.
How wonderful to have an 80th birthday to celebrate. I hope that you all have a really wonderful time. Rest up beforehand so that you will be at your best. I hope that Nancy can stay a while so that you both have the chance for a good natter.
Is Patti still on the internet? If so could you send me her email please so that I can send her a card. Carole, how is she taking your illness? And Dawn? How is Scott holding up?
I'm not making light of it. Although you and the illness share a life, the illness isn't YOU. I know that you care about the special people and I hope that you are all talking, talking, talking.
Comments are supposed to be brief, aren't they? Brief isn't a very familiar word to em. lol.
Take care my dear friend,
Love you.
Laurie
Thanks for letting me know, Laurie. I will note you with Mom's e-mail address. Mom, Scott and Dawn are all taking it as well as you might expect. Nobody wants to hear the bad news, but they know what it all means. We all laugh a little and cry a little and try to make the most we can of the time we have and we all hope that the time left is a lot.
ReplyDeleteI appreciate your comments, brief and otherwise. Smiles, CJ